One special cuddle
As I sit here, about to write this article, I have become overwhelmed with emotion looking at this photo. Evelyn is so incredibly poorly by this time, I willed myself to believe we had a future, that there was hope. I am forever grateful to Laurin for making this day happen. As I mentioned previously, when a baby is intubated, you cannot cuddle them, unless under strict and careful supervision. Laurin and I planned the day so that I could have her out, this is one of the photos taken of that moment. I can't remember how long I managed to have her out for; it was several hours though. The thing is, time stopped still for me that afternoon. It had been 2 weeks since I had held her close to me. That had felt like a lifetime. We were back together, as we always had been, Evelyn and me against the world. I was fully present in that moment, I don't remember worrying about when it would end, I just soaked up every second of her. Her skin was so soft, she smelled so beautifully, I ...