All the emotions
On World Mental Health Day I thought I would reflect on many of the emotions I have felt over the past 2 and a bit years. Yesterday we visited the 'Still Parents' exhibition at The Whitworth. As part of the exhibition there were poems written by parents who had lost babies on the walls. Their words really resonated with me so I thought I would reflect on the words they used to explain my experience of existing without my beautiful Evelyn. The first is loneliness. Grief is incredibly lonely. In truth, all emotions are only ever felt by yourself, you can never experience how someone else feels and they cannot ever fully understand how you feel about something. When you are grieving the loneliness of your experience is amplified to the extreme. You wonder how can you carry such pain alone, walking into that deep dark pit of depression, the darkness engulfing you. That pain never leaves you, its more that you come to accept that you'll live with that pain for the rest of you...